not sure..

"The new year.... welcomes new hope"..
some people say..
..and i do believe it..but only for some qualified reasons...
reasons which sometimes me doesnt understand..emm..
what kind of hope do u expect??
what kind of new things u want in ur life...?
all been determined by u actually...
not others..
so for me its u who make sure that everything u've been hoping will eventually come true...

my hope??
my dreams??
until now i yet cant recall.
im not sure..
i didnt have the ability to think what's best for myself...
that is why sometimes i tend to run from the fact..
facts that i have to chose something over something..
i mean,,the ability in making decisions..
i admit it..i didnt have the guts to make decisions on my own..
although im 21st now..it still doesnt change a thing..
im not sure why..
whatever it is..
i'll try...
i will try..
with the helps of others..
helps from my friends...
helps from my beloved ones...

i will succeed..but it will take sometimes...
all i have to do now is to believe in my self...
for anyone out there who had the same problem as mine...
just take one step further...and u will know what to do neXt..
try it...